come oh bumblebee

I try to talk to you
But I don't know what to say.

I am afraid you don't want me to say anything
So I don't.

But inside of me, there are words waiting to come out
And tell you how I feel - like how I miss you
And how I love you despite my broken heart
And how I need you in my life
And especially how much I want you.

But those words may forever stay in my heart - locked inside.
Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too.
But then... I'll never know.

I watch your chest rise and fall
Like the tides of my life

And the rest of it all
Your bones have been my bedframe
Your flesh has been my pillow

I am waiting for sleep
To offer up the deep
With both hands

Waiting is painful
And so is forgetting.
But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering.

Enlighten me